[please don't take this question the wrong way]...

but...

...I lost my wife to cancer in September; & was starting to get depressed actually very much prior to her illness. No drug will bring her back...but...I've noticed I feel really good, like myself, w/ lots of creative & positive energy, on pot.

I've also been diagnosed w/ depression (not sure about anxiety)...& DO NOT want to smoke pot, for all the obvious health & legal reasons.

So...without sounding like an addict looking for a substitute...is there an anti-depressant out there that makes one feel like their old self, whereby feelings of hope & well being return; & whereby one regains their original vital, creative energies...???

thanks,

dox