I know you may not want to hear this but you MUST eat. A lot of times I do not have the will to eat but I make myself eat at least once a day on those occasions.

I know the holidays are really hard right now, but have you tried instead of buying gifts for your loved ones making them? I'm not the crafty type and have absolutely no money for the holidays either but I have to make do with what I have around the house and make things...

Just hang in there and stay safe. If you're having trouble staying safe, try keeping away from sharp objects, keeping busy, especially keeping your hands occupied. I know that helps me. I type a lot or play cards or whatever to keep my hands busy. Also, cleaning, even if nothing needs cleaned, helps too. Try these suggestions I'm giving you to stay safe, and if they don't work try getting out, taking a walk, whatever.