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Originally Posted by Hunny
Hi Reader,
I feel like I have a generalized fear too. No diagnosis but just a sense of it.
My Dad was in England during WWII and I think he came back with some PTSD and when he came back to Canada he drank, everybody self medicated, it seemed, with alcohol. For some, that was okay, but for my Dad, well lets just say, alcoholism runs in the family and so for him, it was like a poison.
Anyway, all of this to say that I think I was affected by this. I attend an Alanon Adult Children of Alcoholics Group, even though my parents are both passed away. My Mother drank too and died quite young. But, I do think my Dad's greater issue was likely PTSD.
So, I have a constant cloud of fear hanging over me, not just from that. I have other trauma too, but I feel that our home life had a presence of fear that everyone just was used to and so it stayed. Like if there was a measurement for fear in a home setting, I think our would have been quite high. Perhaps, it could also be called a sense of having to walk on egg shells.
If this has nothing to do with you, you can just ignore it.
Ice
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Thanks I just read this. Interesting both my parents lived through World War Two too, one as an adult and one as a child. Neither of them ever touched alcohol, I think because of fear of what might happen if they allowed themselves to indulge.
But yeah there is fear in the air at my parent's home—everything's a danger (we always had an electric stove why? of course because a gas stove "could explode *at any time*" emphasis on the "at any time"--even though electrical wiring can start fires too).
Sometimes I think that whole generation was fundamentally damaged by the war—that's why their kids (the 60s generation) rebelled in the direction of love, peace, trust, etc. (sometimes too much so).