So, it's been a rough few days for me. I had Friday and yesterday off of work, so that part was nice. But the holidays were just so stressful for me(due to hubby being unemployed, me paying all bills, and not many people got gifts), and pretty emotional, since my parents are both deceased, and all I have is my husband and brother.

Two weeks ago, my hubby and I went for a walk in the snow at a local park, and I really messed up my right knee, which got messed up two years ago, but was doing good from all the exercise and therapy I did on it. So, my right knee is weak, painful, and pops all the time. I've been told just to use the heating pad and ibuprofen. If it's not better in a month, go back to the dr.

So, I just finished lunch here at work about an hour ago, and all I want to do is cry. Not really sure why, unless the stress of my own personal feelings about being upset about not everyone getting a Christmas gift, the stress about my pained knee, stress about hubby not finding a job and not really trying either..... I just don't know. I wasn't like this last week and I've done really well on my medicine for the last 3 months.

I literally am about 10 seconds away from a full fledge meltdown. I feel like I want to just crawl into bed, hug a pillow, cry, sleep, and occasionally get up and eat something and use the bathroom. That's it. I haven't even hardly answered any messages (email, text, phone, etc) from friends asking me how my weekend was....

This just isn't me. And I don't know what to do, other than see if this will pass soon... which, I hope it does.