(((((Cats))))) I completely understand where your coming from with all the questions on what helped before and what triggers you it does seems as if nothing helps and talking gets repetitive after awhile but dont give up hope there is always hope. Not wanting to see the nxt chapter in your life due to all the frustuations.......I get it, and yes helping yourself is great but also you having a T your in the right direction. Things will always be a struggle keep working on yourself one day things will hopefully be better for you. Keep us posted and your not alone trust me. I believe you can do this we all fall off track dnt be so hard on yourself tc