It is good that you have become close with your cousin....so that you can be there for her while she goes through the angioplasty.....luckily is has become a perfected procedure with less problems than 20 years ago when my father had it done.

The other thing I hope you realize is that January wasn't that long ago. The first year is always the hardest after someone has died. My mother died in January also. It is common to remember things as they were last year until the 1 year anniversary hits.

To be quite honest for me, I haven't even been able to grieve yet & I am now going through the horrible memories of the trauma we went through when she insisted on being home & my anger at what I ended up having to go through because of her. I have been dealing so much with those memories ending up as PTSD, that there isn't room for grief.

Be there for your cousin.....helping her will help yourself .
Debbie