I have been there. at the time it happened I had so many emotions going thru me at the same time I didn't know which way was up. I loved her because she was my mom. I still find myself at times picking up the phone to call her and she died in 93. When I look back now all those years of the abuse I pity her. She was undiagnosed mentally ill. she was a sick woman and really needed serious therapy. she can't hurt me anymore.