Hayward,

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I just saw this message, and before I was noticing the thoughtful posts you have written in the forum that helped me! I identify with you in a way. I was depressed when I was a teenager, and now I'm 32 and still depressed, worse off than I've ever been and I can't go back to do things over! I've tried every antidepressant known to man (not all of them religiously mind you) and tried pdocs and T but have really suffered. I don't remember anything from my 20s, except that somehow I got an associate degree in the first part. I keep waiting for my life to start.
It's hard to let go of our past issues, I find it incredibly difficult. But dwelling on them doesn't help any of us. That's why I'm here at psychcentral.com and so glad to have found this site!

Z