It sure sounds like a pretty well established depression to me.

I can only comment as one who has it and been around it's edges forever.

Keep a lifeline out. This is a good place if you don't have any physical beings who can/will do that for you.

Be very wary of suicidal thinking, even if it is subtle.

Be certain that, like with the flu, the passage of time will bring better times.

Ask your doctor for a psychiatric referal, or use whatever means you have of finding a doctor who knows how to work with mental illness. They can help you use meds to bring about some control of your feelings. Meds can be harsh, but can save your life.

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