I dont really know where to post this, but i was wondering if there was a certain name or something that i could google to get some info on... Not an eating disorder. but where there is just no food to eat for days (except for left over crackers or ramen), but when food does come around and it's like "YAY!" kind of thing, and i just sit there wanting to eat, but at the same time feeling very sick over it, so i take a bite here and there. (like in this case it's a pizza that i had meat and veggies put on (since i KNOW for a fact i have issues just on normal days keeping vitmins in me, as i have constant issues with dehydration, anemia (this time i believe its both the b12 kind and the more common type), and low on both potassium and magnessium (i forget the technical terms for those are)..
But anyways.. is there a word for that? that would bring up some helpful hints as to how to go about eating this pizza without risk loosing it (as i'm still very nautious). ...
I know i'll feel better if i can just eat it all, but it was where i thought i was hungry, but couldn't eat anything cause i was unbarably nautious while even the thought of eating it. Then i took a bite as i said "i need to atleast get one bite down" and it was where i just had to have another bite, being nautious seemed to take the back seat for a few more bites, then i'm back where i was at the beginning where now each bite makes me get more sick feeling down in my stomach. (i've been working on this slice of pizza for over 2 hrs now... ) is it just my mind? so i should just scarf it down so i get all the nutrients that i can to start feeling better. or if i did that would it just make me loose it all, or cause some other problem?
(again, this isn't an intentional starving thing, i just plain didn't have any money, and couldn't overdraft). so now as i do have money, i'm facing this issue that i never had to this degree before. (when i was little i had times of no food, and i would loose it all the first time i ate after that, but when i was a teen and had issues like this i only got nautious over the thought of food when i wasn't feeling good, but never to the point (as a teen) that it would stop me from eating what food i do have in fears of loosing it, or even having a very uncomfortable feeling within my whole tummy area). and i'm used to that weird swollen hurting feeling from the first swollows of food when it's been awhile in my throat. (i just know to give it time till the feeling goes away, then it's fine.. i was hoping that's what the nausiea would do, but... 2 hrs and going still.. )
any advice on this? or a word or few that google might bring up helpful hints on?