Myers, I wonder......and please forgive me if I have all of this wrong.....are you seeking new avenues to "heal thyself"? Is that the purpose of this thread.....to discuss therapeutic outcomes, or is it that you question being in therapy? Like, is it helping you?......

Do you believe in forgiveness of self? If not, that is cool, it is just something I found that kind of helped more than therapy did really. I mean, I have anger management skills coming out of the wazoo, but none of them help when it is REALLY bad. I get complacent with practicing anger management, yet I have been told by my current psychs that I am not an "angry person" in general. I am actually quite pleasant most of the time, but there is always The Dark, just under the surface and I am only just able to start recognising it for what it really is.

I have replaced the idea of "getting rid of The Dark once and for all" to accepting the idea that it may never go. I may live with this for the rest of my life, so how do I take whatever remnants of good from this and apply it to achieving some joy in my life?......that is the question. Impossible maybe, but I have not given up.

.........the one thing that I remind myself of is that I have been both a victim and a perpetrator......and my journey is be neither......

Take care, dear one...

Michah