Okay, I've decided. I only want to learn the triggers and memories that would allow me to know those languages and cool stuff. Just kidding.

This is very overwhelming to be honest. Here I am, not even wanting these memory pieces to exist and am finding out that in order to be able to access pretty much anything in my life, I have to know them and the memories that go along with them. At this moment in my life, what I really want to do is crawl under my covers and come out after it's over. I'm just not sure I am strong enough or capable enough to deal with all this.

It does explain a lot though, like when I have been told that I sit and stare with a look of fear but cannot talk, or the same thumb sucking stuff while sitting in a corner, again not talking. I wonder how you would ever get the knowledge there that would make it so that doesn't happen. Even though I am not aware of it, finding out that I did it is kind of embarrassing when I imagine me as a grown woman doing those things, especially when other people are around.

Can a memory piece be created to smile, laugh and generally be happy like nothing has happened and if so, how would that happen if a piece is only created through triggers? Also, what about the so called protector memory piece? If I seem to be in danger, apparently this part appears or is triggered, whatever, and deals directly with the person who threatened me (real threat or not). Now, this person was not part of the original event that made the trigger in the first place. Am I seeing the originator of the event or am I seeing the person who threatened me right then? Also, in the event of children, your own, my own, etc, ones that are in our lives now. How do these pieces react to these current day people?

Sorry for all the questions. I have been too afraid to read much on this. I guess so that I won't catch it, LOL.

That part cannot learn how to do a washing machine if they were out and someone showed them? If Margo was able to be taught new coping skills so that she did not throw things, is it possible for other memory parts to be taught or to learn new things?

Thanks myself for being so open about this. I am learning lots. I may not have liked everything I learned but thankfully I can go back and reread this later down the road when the time is right for those parts.