((((((((((griffin)))))))))))

I had a similar experience on Monday in my therapy...it feels awful to be so vulnerable sometimes. I know when I would get floaty when I first started with T, it felt kind of confusing and awful, because it was too hard to explain why, and because it was hard to know he was sitting there seeing me struggle.

It's STILL hard to let T see me have big feelings, or "leave", 3 years later.

Do you think that since you had such good therapy before, it's easier to just get going now? Maybe it won't take a long long long long time to trust...maybe somewhere inside, you know you're safe, and some trust is already there. I hope if I ever have to switch Ts, that the work I've done with this T learning to trust will make that work easier next time.

Therapy is so hard.