Welcome to PC fr. Well, yes, some of this is very normal... but then PTSD is a normal response to overwhelming events! Please do seek counseling to make it easier for you.. the sooner you seek help and receive expert advice and guidance in this (these feelings and responses you are suffering with) the sooner you can get back to normal living responses. Even if it is ptsd, the sooner you receive help, the faster the healing ,a nd the less long term effect it will have on your life ( think... debriefing of military after missions.) TC