I'm so frustrated with all the "professionals" in my life. My pdoc is hell of an expensive, has long waiting lists, sometimes intimidates me and makes some strange decisions.
They really should know better than prescribe meds like they do.

My T is helping me a lot more, but sometimes I think she doesn't pick up on my subtle hints (yes, it's my fault I don't voice them) She could tell I felt a whelling of emotions yesterday (My face went bright red), yet let me leave her rooms without much grounding or questioning me and my feelings. So I'm feeling like the wheels are falling off, like my T has abandoned me. Generally, therapy is becoming too painful and frustrating for me right now.

I understand that the whole slow-release effect comes from the fact that the harder outer core takes a longer time to digest. Breaking the tab open will dump all the meds on me. It's a 150mg XL Tab. What kind of effects would I be experiencing with having this dumped on me? Technically it's 75mg.