Thank you, WePow, for your concern, understanding, and kindness, in all sincerity. Also, for your perceptiveness--this terrible, unforeseen situation has made me feel like I'm visiting my home planet, but I'm not from that world anymore, and never will be again. I keep wishing to start again, to walk into the house the night I'd gotten the news, make that call all over again, and everything's fine. Even when my mom was telling me, I kept asking her if she'd mind if I did just that, as if it would change the whole scenario...

Soothing music is a great suggestion. I wish I'd thought of it, but during these times I tend to avoid anything that brings pleasure. Makes no sense, you'd think I'd want some comfort, and I do. It just all seems so...foreign. So unknown. On top of that, I can't really think, so I don't know how I would come up with anything to begin with...

Any musical recommendations? From WePow or anyone who would like to make a suggestion--don't wish to put anyone on the spot! I listen to a lot of music that probably wouldn't be considered calming--rock, metal, blues, jazz, classical. Though I know there are exceptions to what I'm claiming here in each genre.

WePow, if I regain some strength and rejoin the world, please feel free to lean on me. Even before then. All the best to you.