Yea I said that once too only I wasnt kidding.LOL I wanted the good stuff and not anything to do with the creapy stuff. unforunately they go hand in hand. Good comes with evil and eveil comes with good otherwise a person would not know when their life was good or bad.

Yea it is overwhelming that is why most people are supposed to get their answers from their therapists so they are not getting the info too fast to process.

Yes for every feeling and emotion and so on the brain records and stores that information by way of the five senses - hearing, touch, smell, taste, and sight.

So if a person is doing something they like and suddenly there is an abuse situation EVERYTHING experienced at that moment is stored in the unconscious level if the person has dissociated (went into their mental safe place to escape. The happy parts of the situation gets stored as well as the upsetting parts of the situation and those happy memory pieces also can only act, say do and so on what that memory content is. for example my past therapist (the one I am using for all these posts in this thread) says I have some very happy, playful parts. One plays guessing games so must be at some point I had been playing guessing games right before an abuse situation. I have another part that giggles and asks the same question over and over again - "you like this don't you". I have searched my drawings, poems and so on for what does that mean, it obviously meant something when that memory piece was separates from the bad side of the situation. So you see finding out what the happy ones are about is juist as complicated as finding out the memory content of the other situation. You just keep getting bits and pieces of memories until finally the memory contents connect and form a whole memory of a whole situation.

The labels protectors and so on were put on by the professional word to discribe the strngth or "jobs and content" of the memories.

Basically protectors are (at least from what I can figure out based on my margo memory) more an attitude then anything. "Margo" used to protect me by throwing things and breaking things. My therapist and I think that part of margo memory content may be that during a situation I had to get away by throwing things at my abuser. the situation matched the margo memories so the throwing things to get away got stuck in with those memories. So apparently any time I feel like someone is ganging up on me or treating me unfairly I react by going into my mental safe place and because Im feeling ganged up on, backed into a corner that matches somehow with the margo memory content so my body reruns the memory of going on the defensive and fight back..

Memories are triggered. I have a couple meory pieces that used to play on playground equipment with my son, "mary" cleans and artwork so when the house needed cleaning and his clothes needed washing it got done. They interacted with him according to what the memory content was, just like when I am triggered into memory pieces with my therapist or friends or here alone.

My therapist had spent some time alone with my son to feel him out about how much he understood about me. he told her I was a cool mom and Im not like his friends moms. His friends moms didnt go though the mcdonalds playland equipment and he knows I have a bad memory so I have to write things down because I forget alot.. But he has not yet figured out that I have many parts that have been helping me take care of him.

Yes Margo could learn how to run a washing machine but the professionals dont ADD more to the memorys. Treatment plans for DID is to bring the person back into living in reality not give them more reasons and ways that will enable them to stay in their memtally safe dream worlds.

Thats why you don't find me playing the games of the cave, den and so on. If I did that it would basically be promoting living in my la la land whenever I have a problem instead of activvely using the coping skills that I have learned and am learning in therapy. by playing those kinds of games I am basically ruining 5 years of therapy work because therapy is supposed to be about facing problems and working them out, not running from them and hiding. I do read those posts but I don't take an active part in them. I have worked too long and hard to be set back by hiding from my problems. If something here upsets me I sit down and figure out what it is that upset me and then protect myself by not reading the posts about that content that upset me. Just like in the real word if reading a type of book upsets me I don't read more with that content, the same for movies and so on. Basically I live the same rules on line that I have in real life. running and hiding is not one of them. I made this choice for me because if I am to heal from DID that is what I need to do.

As for being embarrassed about what happens while I am in a memory piece. sometimes but that only lasts until I have found out the content and trigger of that meory piece.