((((Nola)))) Boy do I hear you about wishing we could get a do-over.
I remember the last time I held my late fiance - that was when I was 24 and I am 40 now. He passed in a plane crash a few weeks later and for a long time I wished I had just done this or done that... The truth though is that I can't. And it just hurts more to wish I could.

I listened to Enya to put myself to sleep the months following. It was calming and allowed me to cry in a safe way and process through the deep pain.

Again, I am sorry for what happened.