Abby it seems like you may have depression. You really need to see a doctor to be sure.

Even if you are not suffering from depression in the classic sense, there seems to definitely be something going on there, something that you wish to improve in your life. For this reason I think you really should try to find a doctor and therapist to see what is going on and what help they can provide.

Posting here was a good first step, along with recognizing that there is something that could possibly be improved with some help. I hope you will continue to post here. Even with professional help, the support of other people who understand will be invaluable to helping you feel better.

Good luck

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