Myself I am glad you are doing so well with healing and all...I do think? you still have other sides or alters some call littles or have you integrated all of this? If so that is progress however it could be if you haven't that maybe you are afraid or embarrassed of that side of yourself?
I think from what I have read on this that the littles serve a purpose and that is a form of survival...everyone is in a different place...I am sure you didn't mean to but it seemed to me reading that about the littles and all that you are disowning a part of yourself in fear or shame or something..Anyhow good luck it sounds like you are trying way hard in therapy....I hope you still embrace the child within yourself too...maybe you read that area because parts of you miss and need that too?