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Dec 30, 2010, 06:16 PM
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Member Since: May 2008
Location: Alabama, USA
Posts: 1,309
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Awwww!!!  thank you.
I do have THE best guy in the whole entire world. I am very lucky 
I'm pushing my way through/ I have absolutely no idea how I'm doing it :/ I've had a tough few days and really been struggling...
I never used to let on to anyone how much I was struggling, but the other day I just thought 'why, if I'm struggling, am I doing it ALONE?!?!!' So, I opened up a bit and let David know that I was finding things a bit difficult. I didn't go into huge amounts of detail because I was on the brink of tears and just did NOT want to cry in the middle of the park while out with the dog... 
But yeah... I said that I was finding things hard with ED thoughts and such and that I felt somewhat let down by society. I'm really struggling with money at the moment, for instance. But the one thing that I'm clinging onto with my life is that in the New Year, I have an interview for a job and hopefully then everything will just fall into place. If I get the new job that is. But it's so hard to old onto that when everything else is difficult too
I'm doing so much better than I used to though... Sunday just passed was my 4 month marker for no SI so I'm doing pretty well on that front thankfully. Six months and I'll be proud
Ahhh I'm tired... I'm still not well and still have a lot of clogged up emotion... I'm working on getting that out with David around, but it's hard...
Night all 
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