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i am a DID mom too...and a foster mom to boot...i know where you are coming from...have felt that way on and off for many years...the best thing you can do is to dive headlong into playing with your precious ones and allow the littles to have their time of play...the kids won't know the difference, except that you might have a higher voice and talk more like a kid at times...my daughter notices that, but as she is 15, she has seen a lot and understands that mom has something that is being fixed, but it hasn't been all the way fixed yet...she just laughs and colors right alongside of whoever is out...she tells me about it later...she always says it's ok mom...i understand...ya know, kids are real resilient...they will be able to pick up where they left off...if it seems they are getting the better of you, excuse yourself, tell them mommy needs to go in her room for a minute, I will be right back...then go to your room, and scream or cry or do what you need to, then tuck it back in and go out and deal with the kids again...i was there when I was first diagnosed...i was in and out of the hospital a lot and my daughter didn't understand...but she was well cared for while I was an inpatient...being a single mom has its drawbacks and sometimes I would just have a meltdown the minute she got on the bus...but it happens to all of us, and if you can get some skills under your belt for when that happens you will do a lot better...

sending you prayers and good thoughts your way...

Jewels