Things have been difficult for the last few days. I've realised I am triggered by noises and my thoughts have been racing so fast over things I can't even remember most of them.

I wasn't sure there was such a thing as being triggered by noises I thoughts I was just taking after mum who can't stand whistling sets her off horrid.

But I've found that there are noise triggers. The ones that affect me are cracking of bones (fingers, ankles, knees etc), whistling (which I may have inherited from mum), The tinitus in my ears that drowns out most other noises. DJ rubbing his feet together, and when he plays with chocolate wrappers folds them and crinkles them up and twirls them, making a constant crackling noise.

Theres also this thing he does with a callous type thing on the inside of his thumb and he flicks at it or picks at it and It makes me feel utterly sick to my stomach. In fact I am certain he has developed dermotillomania because he's always picking at some part of his hands or arms. He is allergic to sandfly & mossie bites so when they flare up he is always at them. He can get rid of them by taking a course of antibiotics but he seems to prefer picking. Lets face it though who can resist picking?

I've started working out what (and who) they're related to so hopefully I can desensitise myself (yes I can really see that happening)

But these things have had me taking xanax regularly over the past 3 days or so and still on the verge of a meltdown. I haven't gone into panic attacks but I've been in tears.

Any advice would be gratefully received