i only refered to it as a soap opera as if ever you watch them you see twists and turns and ironies and what not. No it sucks that she is hurting. I really feel for her. I wasn' t the total cause of it. This was long overdue, I was probably just the push needed. Married or not, some relationships are better left to be over with. Its not like I jsut stoled her husband. I did not. I really didn't plan this. It happened. Yes it is very unfortunate that he is married and she still is in love with him. BUt it is too late for that. There is nothing there. I love him terribly and refuse to give up. Through out this whole thread most of everyone was quick to judge and say leave it alone, walk away, it won't happen. Well it has happened, I won't leave it alone and I won't walk away. We have something special that is worth holding onto no matter how hard the struggle. Sometimes it just happens that there is someone else in the picture and they get hurt. I feel bad but I was not the downfall. It was long overdue. And even if no one is in my corner i don't care. I get the impression that no one really likes me here anyways and guess what, I don't care about that either. I am following my heart. And yes it has been hard but its been damn well worth it. I would fight tooth and nail for him. No matter that the circumstances are not in our favor I have faith that it will eventually come together. And knowing that it will makes it that much easier to go forward and wait it out. No it's not easy. But love isn't easy. It is not something that one can be chosey about. You feel it or you don't. I feel it. I have gone to far to lose it all now. There is something between him and I that can not be explained to people who are quick to point a figner and call me a sinner or what not just because he is married. Orf to those who say to give up. That he is playing me. THat there is only heartache. Mark my words, I would suffer a lifetime just to have him for a moment. IT is worth it. He is worth it. And it is real. Real life. Real time and real lonely for everyone. But I am sticking it out....It can be no other way.....sorry....