I also spent the holiday alone. I have no real family aside from two children that live with their mother far enough away so that there is no quick or easy way to see them.

I'm ok with being alone - I always feel that way anyway.

The only hitch for me is not being able to see the xmas morning joy on the kids faces. I mourn that loss.

They called me, I cried for awhile and then I distracted myself with a lot of nothing for the rest of the day.

Do other people invite any of you to their family gatherings for the holidays?

I do get those invitations but I think I'd feel much worse if I went and observed how other families relate to one another on holidays, or any other day for that matter. Maybe it's jealousy. I don't know but if I went and was surrounded by their happiness it would only make me feel more alone - feeling alone when I'm not actually alone is much more damaging to me then just being alone.

Did I just mess this thread up? I'm sorry if I did....