Thank you for your words. I am lonely I suppose. HE fills a void that I have had since I can remember. I think I would definatly be getitng different responses if he was not married. Then it would be wonderful that i was in love and great. This isnt the case. No one seems to care that even with it's drawbacks it is the best I have ever felt. That it is something that completes me.

I don't plan on having any more kids. I am getting the surgery the day after christmas. Tubal litigation. If I was someone else I would love nothing more than to have babies and a family however I am me and know I am jsut not the nurturing type. i plan on being wiht him for the rest of my days. I didn't think i would say this or ever feel it but yeah, he is the one. I knew it six years ago and i know it now. wife or no wife. she will soon be less of an issue. If ever she moves out completely. SHe has most her stuff still there although she isnt living there......no one has to tell me why this is I already know............regarless............we belong together and that is that..........

thank you