Dear VL, To be willing to suffer a lifetime for one minute with him, Oh girlfriend, that is such a high price to pay. Those of us, who advise you get out of this relationship, care about you. Most of us are old troopers who have seen so many young women go through this kind of situation, it breaks our hearts. We really do feel for you. Care about you. Want the best for you. It is from this experience we speak to you.

It is clear to me now, from your last post, that you are dug in and determined to stay your course come what may. Remember, you asked for help, in big letters, when you started this thread? What were you looking for that you haven't got?

I fear more hard lessons are coming your way and that makes me very sad. Nobody can tell you what to do but yourself. I hope you find what you're looking for. Peace.