I discovered BPD through reading and asked my fairly new therapist if she thought it fit. She did, but she didn't present it to me because she doesn't focus on the diagnosis and she doesn't want her patients to get hung up on the diagnosis.

When she agreed with my conclusion that BPD fit me, I really felt relieved. I felt relief from the "FREAK!" label that I always felt (imposed by me and by others). And I felt like I had a starting point. "You are here: X" And finally I had an explanation for and validation of the very intense emotions that seemingly innocent events can trigger. The diagnosis also meant that I didn't have to hide this episodes, that I finally had someone to talk to about them who understood me and could help me learn more about what was happening.

Beyond the diagnosis, the work is personal and much deeper, and meaningful. I'm glad that I was able to find a reason for why I am how I am and someone to help me move toward being who I want to be, and feeling much better.