I am at a total loss re: why your Dr's don't treat your obvious, severe depression more agressively. :-(

I'm one of the people that continues to think of you a lot even when you don't post - see recent APB - and it's only because Tomi let me know she had heard from you that I let up.

I don't understand why you're saying that you won't post anymore. :-( How can we try to be of support to you if we can't interact?

I'm feeling very sad that that light I saw coming back in your cyber-eyes, is not shining as brightly right now; I hope that that will change.

I want to say that I am a REAL PERSON on the other end of your computor, and I wouldn't continue to bother if I didn't honestly care. There's no entertainment for me in suffering and pain, much less the kinds of struggles that you are going through. So it isn't comforting to read that you might be dead soon, but 'don't look for any more posts.' People that care don't want such attempts to 'let them off the hook' if that's what you're thinking. It doesn't work that way, believe me. It just makes a person feel more helpless.

As ever, Jill

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