I have absolutely no one who understands me. No one. My family is full of Christians, full of people who think that my life would be so much better with God in it. Everything is just a disaster now. I'm not a Christian, my family hates me. I'm not perfect, I can be annoying sometimes, my family hates me. I'm not stick thin, sometimes I eat too much, so they judge me. Everything is just a disaster. I have no desire to fight anymore... I'm so sick of everything. Everyone hates me. It was proven tonight.

I wish I could just be back in the hospital again, wish I could trade families or go live with a friend. I can't take this anymore. I need help.... I don't know what to do.....No one loves me, not even myself.

Why can't it just go away? I can't cope. I think I've hit rock bottom. I haven't felt like this in forever. Someone please... just be there. I can't take this anymore... I really can't.