It seems like God = Hope to you. When you lose hope, you lose God in your life. It's almost as if it's a symptom of depression in and of itself.

I guess...you get through it by learning to love yourself somehow. Anorexia...i often think it's a disease of wanting to be perfect. But you cant be perfect, even Christianity says no one is perfect because they were born into a sinful nature.

I'm sorry your family isn't more understanding.