I agree that at your age, you can't trust some of your feelings. As for the sexual --- confusion--- much of that can be blamed on hormones (which are raging or about to, in your body.) Part of maturing is knowing right from wrong and acting on the right, and not on the wrong. It would be good to find someone IRL to confide in, an adult, who can help you sort out these thoughts and feelings. Before you act on any feelings that are in conflict with what you know to be right, ask someone for help IRL... take care