Hi ya Myself....I have a hard time reading any long post..it's ME not YOU I just cannot seem to keep my mind focused on long ones......but from what I did read you do feel you have somewhat integrated which to all I have read is the goal because it thus allows one to be able to take a bus and so on without issues of panic and so on...I have panic attacks too and hate them but manage them OK to well nowdays....I was just throwing out some thoughts and ideas to ponder....not saying they were or were not truths...I think its a jouney and many are in different places ...That is neither a wrong or right or even avoiding triggers..its just maybe where someone is..I hope that makes sense...