Ozzie you can PM me any time...I know the fear of the worse stuff is a biotch...and I have somehow managed for the most part to move it away from me....For me one of my worse fears came true and well I think you get numb after a while...Some of the BEST research and docs are at Duke University on RA and I wish there was a way you could go there...I think it is NORMAL to worry on it...I mean if you arent able to fuction then its bad but keeping busy with spurts of fear and worry I dunno I think its normal