Thanks everyone for your great words. Kitty, I totally agree with you. Its good to focus on what we do thats right. This thread (thank you sundog and all who contribute) allows me to stop and look at what I did that was good and right. The negative is default. I can always see what I did wrong. Exercising the muscle of seeing what I do right is whats needed. As I increasingly exercise that muscle, I think I am exorcising the thoughts of what I do wrong

Today I took down the small christmas tree and put it away. I went out to get water from the co-op. I called the people I was supposed to call. And I posted how I truly feel on a thread somewhere that I feel safe doing so.