Wellcome, and good for you to reach out. What I did was admitting that I could'nt solve the problem on my own, and I found help in AA. I have been sober since I joined. There is also NA, and I think you can find them online.
Read the postings here, see how people deal with it, and pick up the things that would work for you! That might be a 12 step program, a therapist, finding support here. Work on it, and keep coming back. Lots of people understand you here and it's a fine community without judgements.
Bless you.