I really don't know how else to ask this other then just be blunt.
I am all black or all white. When things are going good I have hope and light. I see no darkness and the things around me make me happy and content. (Mind you this is a rare thing for me)
BuT, most of the time my world is black. And, instead of seeing the hope or believing things are going to be okay I resort to wanting to kill myself. It is like I completely cannot use any other skills to manage my feelings.
Anyone out there have the same situation?
Any help you can offer?
It is so draining in my head!!!