yeah know when i was on celexa i noticed when i changed dosages or forgot to take it i got even more suicidal/thinking about how awful my life was than normal. not waying it's all due to the meds but it sure does effect it. i can't take that med anyways.
i am sorry you have this heavy emotions you are lugging around. it feels like you are being pushed down when all you want to do is get up.