Hey sj, I don't know why this image popped into my head when I read your post, but, maybe it came for you :
Years ago there was a line drawing poster of a woman, body facing viewer, but all bent over herself in between her bent up legs, like between her knees. The caption read:
I AM WOMAN GIVING BIRTH TO MYSELF
I get the hit that you don't really want to end something, rather, want to start something........ does this make any sense to you? )))))sj401