Right now, one foot int front of the other, don't hink further ahead then you need to to get through each minute, each hour, if you can help it. Don't worry about what you can not change. Don't blame your self for what you can't take responsibility for. Sounds easy, it's very hard. Take some HUUUUUGGGGGSSSSS, try to remember that it hurts, but feelings are no more real than you let them be. I really, really hope that you can work this through.