Well..you see people...there were times i felt extremely...in need - addicted - to buying cloth, food....and became extremely angry if it was avoided for me. I decided i would rather provide myself with my addiction - mostly to sweets and other..but not only....well and strong sexual desires too....

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So - after being diagnosed - well - actually - i had internal conversations with myself long before - did not know it was anything DID - but knew that the parts of me were claiming (and showing) me that at nigh (this can trigger! or at least revolt) to...eat... roaches while going out at night. To the beach. For a few hours. I do not remember very well but while seeing a roach real time i am very afraid and feeling like its climbing on me!! YUCK...
Now while talking to the alter...."she" claims that i don`t feed them all very well and that roaches are actually delicious and have a good amount of protein in them. She claims to being able to smell it. She shows or - experienced me the taste...and the legs especially were yummy WTF

I have been scared of roaches and hated insects for as long as i can remember. I was always afraid and if i saw one in my parents house i would immediately scream and run away form the room. I have none in my apartment * THANKS GOD*

Well - now i am listening to those alters because She and the inner child have those needs that if i do not satisfy they go out at night and do crap,,,,

Eating roaches is actually their lightest crime...but well...IDK i am afraid that if proof will be found...law will be involved and get thrown into a psych hospital for the rest of my life be locked there...