There's a lot of great collective wisdom here. Thanks. It IS important to remember the positive things that happen, and to remember compassion for ourselves. I instantly start bludgeoning myself with criticism and regrets, despair about changing anything in the future. I also start feeling that at age 55, my life is over. I have to push past the fatigue and brain fog and self-absorption that depression causes. I've always backed down from things that are really hard or scary. It's a lousy way to live. I want to have more character than that.