Mary Alice
Please don't give up.
Things can and will chage for the better(I know you he probably heard his so many times before) But try and hve some faith in it.
You sound like such a wonderful and caring person and if you eed to take a little space from posting the do what is best for you, but don't just stop forevr.
I am glad you let us know how you are feeling and it must be hard to post this all right now.
I really wish so much that there was some way I could help you.
You always have such kind ad caring words for others here.
You will be in my thoughts. And I wish you nothing but the best.
Take Care of yourself and Alex, he needs you too!!!