Thank you so much for caring, you guys, especially for the cheerleading, WePow- I need that right now.

It's the end of the day here, thankfully. Days like today really drive home how much DBT has taught me- before therapy I would have just been writhing in pain in my bed for the whole day. Now to do it all again tomorrow...

And I still struggle with whether the distracting and soothing are the 'right' thing to do, you know? Maybe because I spent my entire teenage years just working harder and harder to escape the reality of my situation, which kept me alive but ultimately wasn't helpful, I do wonder now whether all these DBT skills are just 'pretending' that my life is worth living, when the facts say that it isn't. I suppose this is a rambling way of saying, I wonder whether my previous automatic response (= despair and suicide) was actually the right one.

elliemay and poetgirl, I do understand what you're saying about it not being effective to pull away from T right now, but I feel profoundly disconnected from it all. I'm deeply alone- what's the point in pretending otherwise?