Ok, I know we are unpredredictable in our behaviours, but I cannot deal with the unknown when it comes to others - I am so scared of being abandoned and alone once more. Not knowing exactly how another person is going to react or respond to me sends me into a frenzy and I start to spiral quickly(like now) . I am TRYING to think about things logically but I can't keep hold of it. I just know it's all going to end in disaster once more. You would have thought I'd be able to deal with it better since it happens over and over...ha!

Sorry if this is a bit vague, I just can't bring myself to write the words right now. Just don't know what to do with myself