Csidegal, I hope you can find camraderie and support here. I've been struggling with depression, anxiety and low self-esteem since childhood, and am still struggling at 55. It's caused failure in the workplace and in love. I understand the fatigue that comes from trying so hard to make it better. I don't want to tell my story one more time to yet another therapist or get another placebo effect instead of real relief from a drug. I wish I could offer strength and hope, but I'm in a pretty dark place too. I hope that things will get brighter for you before long.