Echoes, I think Skeksi is right - there is guilt for standing up for me :-( No clue as to why. And I have no idea why T would be mad at me either. I just feel mixed up and very ugg. Well, yes I do know why T may be mad at me because I was honest and told him about a self-harm thing I did when I came home from that because I was not mentally stable. uggggggg. I am fine but I don't need to do that type of thing and I worry sometimes if I just need to be in DBT or something stronger or maybe a total brain transplant. I feel like I just can't respond that strongly when these things happen. I just don't have tools to deal with the power of those emotions when things go south too fast.
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