Improving,
I sincerely feel your pain and emptiness right now. You were able to articulate that very well in your writing. It must be very difficult to be in that state of limbo with your partner. And the airport shutting down in the midst of the holidays is a super low.

When the break comes and we feel the disconnect from t it can make life situations seem unbearable. I am so pleased that you can dig deep and find some DBT skills to use. That is so difficult to do. I personally have a hard time accessing them when I feel like I am flying solo in the world. (on break from skills training, coaching line, individual t)

I was wondering if you could possibly print off your post and bring it to your session? I know that would be jumping in with both feet right away. But if you could hand it over to t she would definately know where you are at right now and I am thinking she might be able to navigate her way through and gently find a way to have you feel contained, held, connected, give you hope, encourage you, calm your fears. That might be just what is needed after this stressful holiday.