You may have seen my posts before. I've always felt lost and worthless and guilty and hopeless and scared. It's been that way for over 5 and a half years now.

But today, something changed. I'm not sure exactly what caused this change, possibly this autobiography that i finished reading, but as I just said, I'm not exactly sure.
I now feel hope.
I thought that to after so long, it would take years to get better and only after admitting my issues to someone who i know. But it turned out that it was much more like getting grappled by a fishing hook: it hurt like hell for a few seconds, but i was then pulled quickly out of it.

This is such a strange feeling because for so long i've felt there's no hope for me in life, but now I feel motivated to work hard, take chances and make my worth.

Then I feel annoyed that I've wasted so much of my life. But I can see it in another light: i have learnt so much from those "wasted" years. I've quickly found a lot of inspirational quotes and written them on my door so that if I ever start to go downhill again I can lift myself up.

But really, what I wanted to say was:
Any of you who feel lacking hope, it will get better, no matter how hard that is to believe.
I know it seems hypocritical to say that because it's only just happened, but nevertheless, it's true!
And thank you all for helping me in my darkest times. I will still be here, reading and commenting on posts, but hopefully I wont be posting myself anymore. xxxxx