Feline, Just hang in there. You need to find a therapist, not a P-doc. You need more than just some meds, trust me. They do help, but talking to someone that can give you copeing mechanisms can really help. I have gone thru the same thing about the same time last year and found a good T and it has helped tremendously.
I will pray for you and send big hugs for you.

Just remember this! You are not alone. There are many others out there that feel the same way and have gone from being in a really really bad place to being happy. If I can do it you can too! You are not alone and we are always here for you.